Guess what? I fucked your brother.

I miss being young, and innocent. Innocent minded, no worries. No stains, nothing fucking with my head at night. Drugs, friends. School was easy. People were easy, i had everyone in the palm of my hand. What happened?

i heard she dated that asshole.
I heard she stayed with that kid for almost two years.
I heard she's a whore.
She's so beautiful.
Don't make me rape you.
i wish i looked like her.
I'm worried she's smoking.
She's my best friend.
She's my wife.
Please don't do this, i dont understand.
Your going to regret this.
Isn't this great?
Isn't she gay now?
You mean Audrey?
I'm back Samantha.
Fuck off whore.
I want my Sammy.
Friend.
Spamantha.
Francis.
Boo.
Want to smoke?
Sister.
Daughter.
Leader.
Student.
Youre too young.
Guess who i love?
13 year olds trying to fuck me.
Not even ten minutes.
Goodnight.


Well you just laughed it off it was all ok. and we'll all float on okay, and we'll all float on, ok. I'm so tired, I have to pee. my dog's snoring and I need bamboo canes. I have a voice, a body. I can move, I can move you. I'll dance away with the clouds and the stars while the moons rips out your eyes.

Keep swinging.

Rain.

It's three a.m. I don't really want to be awake, but I am. Staring at this screen my head hurts, and i remember feeling sick in your car. You were beautiful, the night was cold and beautiful. I don't want to be in my bed. And i don't want to be here.

I can't understand everything. I want to be alone in a huge city. Streetlights, buildings. night time.

Fucking stressed, and tired. All the time. I want to be understood, To understand. and wanting only gets me so far.

Analyze it, analyze it all and keep it in your head. Thrive on it, suck it's dick. I'll still love you, and have no idea why. But i will and I guess that's pretty important.

Bitch.

Cough

It's nearly midnight which means i'll have to wake up in about five hours. But my nose is running cold and my arm's drizzling blood so i'll just peck my words out through these buttons and see what happens. It's really not that I don't want to sleep. I just don't have the patience or desire to do it. A lot has changed since my last entry.